The Ocean Washes Me

Shine like the sun, you are beautiful.

     An unexpected bouquet of sun shine was delivered to my door this morning. Or I should say this afternoon, seeing as I slept at Mel's last night and woke up too hungover(as usual) to really appreciate the weather on my way home (or read the bus schedule right). But after my afternoon nap I was ripe and ready to get me some Vitamin D! 

     This afternoon you could have found  me sitting drinking orange pekoe tea, calculating confidence intervals, ease dropping on sailing adventures around the world at Oak Bay Discovery Coffee; Or at the ocean clearing a head full of negative thoughts and feelings, watching clouds cover mountains like blankets, and biking along a coast line with wind in my hair, and sun on my back.

     Now I sit pressing spring flowers, snacking on salty olives and Camembert, wishing I had a glass of Merlot. Also I've decided I don't want to be upset anymore, my life is too great to go around moping around with this heavy heart. I have the best friends in the whole wide world and if that is all they can be right now I am okay with that.

I am the luckiest girl in the world.



Tomorrow I will be a wreck.

If moments will not last, and now I am here
And music is to dance as i am to feel,
These are the days I am to love
There is only one I am thinking of.
Left am I here, in a sea of ache
Where cruel intentions form and bare
No harm I hope on those I love
But to I, I don't mind to deeply cut
To feel alone is in itself, loss of hope
And liquid help, to numb what is left
And unknown is what to do
All I want is to be with you.
I have lived, I have loved, and you I will choose.
But your wish was to much, and I am to lose
What I want is not what I will get,
Again I will spend a lonely night with no end.
I mean not to make you feel any pain
I have drank to the bottom, and should refrain
These words I have spoke, though true, usually contained,
But the liquid poured,  I have let flow the decay
I am left still,
and now
I am

lost.

Sonnet I.

A dreamer once spoke his words aloud,
Unknown was the response he would receive.
An imagined pleasure should have been found,
As the feelings to be released was a relief.
Although once one got what he wished for,
He was not ready for what could unfold.
However she was and wants much more,
Unable to hold her, he finds her cold.
She wants to say that she will wait,
With a questioned heart, full of confusion
And if unsure how long it will take,
To be left with one conclusion:
    If one waits for boys to become men,
   A flowers bloom may die by then.

Wake Up

This day was once unknown,

Time could not be superimposed,

Upon such feelings denied.

Although in those two words

A catalyst was held,

And the reaction sped ahead.

My hiding places are now full,

The holes dug, filled.

Their contents spread, spilled on the floor.

I want to take them down the Parkway,

I want to camp at night,

Held tight, the mountains kept in sight.

No longer can be denied,

“There’s a world to be explored”,

And yes, I would love to jump aboard.

Sooner than expected that “One Day”

Has arrived, and no longer

Does one have to dream.

(In response to "One Day")

Euphemism

Oh yeah, this thing I like to do sometimes...

That thing called life tends to get in the way of personal interests, and indulgences such as this. I've been busy. Okay, busy is an understatement to which school and dance have been demanding my full attention. It's mid-term season, and the last week before my dance recital. Surprisingly though I have been able to keep intact a shred of social life. Between Discovery Coffee stats study sessions, company dance rehearsals, and constant weather analysis, I have managed to fit in Quiz Night, a movie, la petite mort incroyable, and visits with Aleesha. I also somehow managed to have a five hour nap this afternoon. Oops. This weekend has been much appreciated, and enjoyed.

I started dancing in the Victoria Dance Theatre Company a little while ago now, and as mentioned I have my first dance recital on Friday, that I am very excited for! I'm dancing in four pieces! At our last rehearsal we discussed costumes, and went through the show, and I think it is going to be brilliant! I dance with such great girls, I have been learning so much from them, everyone is so talented! My parents and friends have said they are coming, which makes me nervous, and even more excited at the same time. This is the poster for the show:

I am also on day 6 of the Wild Rose Cleanse. It's been going really well, it is my first cleanse so I wasn't to sure what to expect but it's been really easy so far. The diet is basically everything I already eat so that hasn't been too hard, expect i miss dairy and of course sugar. The herbal supplements that I take every morning and evening aren't so bad either.

It's really great for me not only in cleansing my body, but for cooking habits. Through this cleanse I have had to prepare and cook every one of my meals, and they need to be full meals, which is something I have NEVER done. I have been spending lots of time in the kitchen, and I've really been enjoying it (surprisingly). It's been difficult in that I can't really eat anything from the school cafeteria, so I pack a lunch everyday, so I have to plan ahead and make sure i have enough food for the day, and it's saving me SO much money not buying lunch in the cafeteria everyday. 

Also I've noticed that everything I have put into my body in the last 6 days has been real food. Nothing processed, or really packaged. It's mostly, if not all fresh, and I feel AMAZING! I've also been keeping up on my gym workouts, and even have a new regime that's a bit harder then the last. So that feels pretty great too. My goal is to be able do at least one pull-up! Yay for increasing upper body strength!