I didn't have the guts,
to go through with it.
I didn't have the strength,
to say the words.
To admit to this desire,
would be a pain lost.
To act on what I want,
I thought I could do.
Disappointed in myself,
defeated once again.
Will this burden lay with me?
Why can I not confess the help needed?
To the only one who can,
The only one with the answers.
Another moment lost,
Another restless night.